Horrible..

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

i picked this quote from Neil Gaiman's the sandman because it perfectly describe how i feel right now.. its supposed to be our 21st monthsary today but i dont feel "happy" or in love or whatever they call it this days.. i dont feel the need to be mushy, the need to blurt out cliche after cliche.. no sirrr! none of that insted i feel sad.. so detached.. so empty.. like everything is a blur.. it feels like i'm floating into nothingness.. what the hell is happening to us?i hate this.the hell with this day.